Lately I seem to have more and more of those days when I'm completely stressed out. On one of these troubled days I looked at my roommate Audrey and said, "I just want to sit in a box for the rest of my life and not move." She asked if she could join and I decided to be nice enough to let her. That was our best solution for dealing with all of life's problems.
I miss those good old days when I could build a fort out of blankets and any random thing I could find in my room and just pretend to be somewhere else. I would make up a different world and live in it for a couple of hours completely unaware of the difficulty of reality.
I'm not that old, some might argue I'm not old at all, but those days are long gone and every morning I have to face the world once more and realize I no longer have the luxury of escaping into fantasy. Each day brings with it more decisions and responsibilities. I no longer work to have some cash for outings with friends; I work to eat and sleep on a comfortable bed. I no longer read to find out how Charlie won the chance to enter the beloved chocolate factory; I read as part of my training for the field work I will do tomorrow. Graduation is around the corner and I will cease to be a student. For 14 years of my life all I have known is the life of a student. Sure, I will continue dealing with school because of my choice of career as a teacher, but it will be on a different end.
Crawling up into a box would be so easy and convenient. I would love that so much, but I would hate it because when you are in the box you miss out on quite a lot. The more time I waste in fantasy, the more I will miss out on living a real life. It's time to leave innocence behind and to work. But I will always find comfort in those beautiful words: If God is for us, who can be against us? and if our God is with us, then what can stand against?
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